Today marks 8 weeks since the day Jess and I arrived in Brazil. So far we´ve been in 5 different cities and lived with 3 different families. Even though our lives aren´t incredibly busy day-to-day, it feels like so much has happened in the past 2 months. It´s been incredibly interesting to observe another culture from the inside out. Right from the start I noticed that my mindset was different than it´s ever been before when I travelled to a foreign country. Deciding to live somewhere makes you look at everything differently. You stop looking at things in terms of ´them´and ´us´ because you´ve decided to become ´them´. That doesn´t make you ´them´automatically, of course, but it sure does change the way you look at things.
I have a distinct feeling lately that I have no idea about anything. I have come to many strong conclusions in my life, and have gotten to the crux of many matters. Yet after the events of the past two months I feel like, `I don´t know´ is the safest answer I can give if I am going to be honest about things. My strongest feelings and my most logical thoughts, both of which I´ve come to trust over the years, simply aren´t trustworthy. And I can´t depend wholeheartedly on other people, because when it comes right down to it, nobody knows anything for sure. Except Jesus. I can only depend on the Lord. Feelings that I´ve been sure of for so long, it´s like they´ve all gone down the drain and I´m not sure of anything. But I´m sure that I can trust Jesus. I´m sure that He´s in control. And I´m so glad because I am so incredibly changeable, I scare myself. I can only depend on Jesus. Wow.
It´s the time to say good-bye again and this is definitely the hardest so far. We´re leaving the Spagnol family in Barretos after having stayed with them for three weeks. I didn´t know it was possible to understay your welcome, but that is definitely the impression I´ve got about leaving. We´ve gotten attached to the family, dog and cat included. Sigh.
Esdras will drive us out to Sao Jose do Rio Preto this evening and we´ll take an 11 hour overnight bus ride to Brasilia. Luciana and Francy Anne will pick us up, and we´ll stay with Lu for the weekend. I´m not sure when I´ll get the chance to write again, because apparently we may be travelling with Marcio (yes, he´s back in Brazil!) and his family to Palmas on Tuesday. For an indefinite amount of time. We´ve had very little details about the plans. But we´re used to living on very few details :)
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